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[hypertoxic]

Fuck you, of course I'm still alive.

What do you want, Jean?

[hahahorsejokes]

Good

I'm just seeing how people are dealing with this crap

[ He's already run into a couple dead devices, so. ]

[hypertoxic]

Who are you killing?

[hahahorsejokes]

Funny, I don't remember saying I was planning on killing anybody

[hypertoxic]

If you're not dying, you're killing. So are you telling me you plan to 8ite it?

[hahahorsejokes]

I'm not letting anyone else die for me. That's all I'm saying.

What are you planning?

[hypertoxic]

So you're 8iting it. Who for?

I don't know. I volunteered one of my 8est friends, Jean.

[hahahorsejokes]

[ jesus vriska, is this what it's like talking to him? bleak and terrible and way too direct? ]

It doesn't matter. Even if we got assigned someone we hated, that's not an excuse for killing them.

[ that said, he put one of his friends down too. it's not great. so he knows this isn't much comfort, but— ]

You can change the name.

[hypertoxic]

[ yes. yes it is. ]

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We're 8lue team, Jean. This is what we signed up for. Orders are an excuse.

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........

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I know.

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8ut I am going to talk to the guy I nomin8ed, first. I think he would want to know.

[hahahorsejokes]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
I didn't sign up for this crap to murder people, much less my friends. No matter what color we end up being.

[ that much he'll never completely understand. death. killing. however, the honesty she's talking about, full disclosure... those are things he kinda gets.

still, bears the question: ]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
You think he'll be okay with that?

[hypertoxic]

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You signed up to destroy planets! Murdering people is part of the package.

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No. 8ut I owe it to him to 8e honest a8out it.

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I am not going to 8ullshit him a8out something this important.

[hahahorsejokes]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
I didn't sign up for jack
Bunch of people got tricked

[ he'll do what he has to regardless, but it's a bitter subject. ]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
What if he IS okay with it?

[hypertoxic]

[ Like a solid minute goes by before she replies. This is nothing she wants to think about at all. ]

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I don't know.

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I guess ........ I would have to kill him.

[hahahorsejokes]

[ go figure that that'd be the more difficult question of the two. ]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
So I guess the last thing left to ask is
are you okay with that

[hypertoxic]

[ An even longer pause, this time. He's pinning her to a wall, and she hates it. But she also can't bring herself to lie to him. Someone else, maybe. But not Jean. He's too like her. ]

No.

[hahahorsejokes]

[ it's the answer he expects, even if vriska very obviously has her fair share of issues. because sometimes, acerbic, messed-up people have hearts too.

there's a bit of a delay on his end as well. something about the conversation hits a little too close to home. ]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
Be careful what choice you end up making

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
You don't forget losing these kinds of people

[hypertoxic]

I know.

Don't you have a gruesome death to go get ready for?

[hahahorsejokes]

Yeah yeah
I'll miss you too Vriska

1/2

[hypertoxic]

[ WHAT NO

HOW RUDE!!!!!!!!!!! ]

[hypertoxic]

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Fuck you, Jean! I don't want your dramatic 8ullshit whiny good8yes.

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We are going to 8ring everyone 8ack.

[hahahorsejokes]

[ man, he was half-joking but now it's... real. damn. ]

FROM: kirstein.jean@cdc.org
Nice sentiment
But I don't believe in that kind of stuff, Vriska

[ it doesn't matter that she's dead, that he's met dead people, whatever. death is such a concrete idea to him that it's strange to take as anything less. ]

[hypertoxic]

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Hey, you saw what Mothership said as well as I did!

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And 8elieve me, I am not the first person to trust the instructors.

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8ut may8e just this once.

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If I turn out to 8e wrong then so what? Nothing will have changed, 8ig whoop.

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8ut what if it's true?

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So, to reiter8: fuck that, and fuck you. I will see you l8r.

[hahahorsejokes]

[ This doesn't get a response. It's dangerous to hope so much, Vriska. She'll probably kill someone and that blood won't be erased—she's right, nothing will have changed. That's the problem; from everything he knows, death is so, so final.

(But... maybe he'll keep this in mind. Maybe he will, against his better judgment, wish she was right.

Just this once.) ]